Eminem and Joyner Lucas reunite on the unreleased collaboration “What If I Was Gay,” where the duo reflect on the controversies they have face throughout their respective careers.
Check out Eminem’s lyrics below:
What if I told you I’m homophobic?
And you have zero control over your impulses
And the genetic flaw in your chromosomes is the culprit
It’s something I can’t sugarcoat, it’s repulsive
We were homies, since children, I thought it
But thought I was buggin’, though
‘Cause we’d sit, chill and just talk chicks
Now how can we be friends still after all this
Unless, I can convince you to repent
Ask God to forgive you for your sins
And begin healing your conscience
And rid you of this sick illness that causes it
Part of me wishes you’d kept this shit, still in the closet
I’m white but I’m getting mixed feelings like Logic
Yeah, I’m pissed off a little, this is a choice
We were supposed to be boys
You’re acting like this ain’t optional
What if I said you was weak?
‘Cause you don’t got the strength to conquer some biological monster that’s part of you
That’s responsible for them homosexual thoughts
If you don’t want a lecture, part
Like a sofa section or long as you
Make your decision and stand by it, but I can’t be beside it
‘Cause for me, that’d be next to impossible
Or you learn to control your urges
You say, “It’s like pulling teeth and morals of oral surgeons”
But how would you even know anyways if you’re a virgin
Why can’t you be a normal person?
What if I tried steering you towards a girlfriend?
Wouldn’t work, would it? You seem pretty surefooted
I’m sure good at judging, but I have no right
I know goodbyes seems cold, right?
Not even a flicker of hope like a strobe light
As I leave and I swear I stayed up that whole night
And no I didn’t know you would go right home and go take your own life
I ain’t mean for that shit to happen, I said I won’t cry
I let the best friend that I’ve ever known die
Alone, was gonna tell you the next day
I’m so sorry, I’m fighting my own demons, I won’t lie
They won’t leave me alone, eating at my soul, this whole time
I’ve been tortured, imprisoned in my own mind
A born again Christian but Lord if you’re listenin’
We might be headed for a collision
‘Cause when I told my boy I couldn’t support his decision
I was tryna make it seem like a choice, when it isn’t
Can’t be cured with a prayer to Saint Jude
What If I told you my wish never came true?
What if I’m a hypocrite who is afraid to just face truth? Wait
What if I told you I’m gay too?
For Joyner’s lyrics, visit GENIUS here.
Listen to the song here.